The thing about ban mian
I had my ban mian craving satisfied today. It took me close to two weeks, but i finally have it, alone or not. I haven't had it for close to two months since being away, and i foolishly waited to have it for someone who couldn't care. And then i dwelled on the fact that i waited and it epitomizes what the last year was, and i get depressed. Today, on a quiet Sunday, i faced my mistakes and did something for myself. I waited so long to have my comfort food when nobody else was waiting for me. How silly. I am still hurting but i will get better. I have probably bothered my friends more with the same shit than ever, and i should not bore them further. I find myself not being able to answer simple questions about past. How little i know, did anyone care? I hope to be able to have a different answer altogether someday. Time to restart this happy on my own again. And ironically, the friends who have provided the support where those i was this close to losing.